Angry Tide - Poem

Emotions exploding from so many broken hearts
Helpless to the pain from a world so torn apart.
Dreams for the future were shattered by the rain
What I wouldn't give to be three weeks ago again
Now all of the plans we made are lost beyond the clouds
Now all of these tears I shed are lost among the crowds
All of this pain I feel I just can't keep inside
Everything's ripped apart from a sudden, angry tide


- Mandi Lynn © 2013

What Do You Believe In Me - Song

Been living my life in the backseat
I've long let go of the reigns
I'm tired of this life I've been wasting
Don't wanna live another day
I'm lost in the wrong direction
Darkness everywhere I see
If home is where the heart is
There's no home for me

I'm ready for a new beginning
You tell me You will take me in
You can be my true North
Help me start again

Tell me do You believe in me
Tell me what You see in me
Is there a tomorrow I can hope for
With unshattered dreams
Tell me who I am
Tell me what's Your plan
What do You believe
What do You believe in me

Been wandering around in circles
Time erases all my tracks
I can't find my way without you
There's no heading  back
I'm ready for a lifeline
It's time to sink or swim
I could use Your light to guide me
The stars are growing dim

My past is unforgiving
But Your strength can pull me through
Yesterday is history
My future starts with You

Tell me do You believe in me
Tell me waht You see in me
Is there a tomorrow I can hope for
With unshattered dreams
Tell me who I am
Tell me what's Your plan
What do You believe
What do You believe
What do You believe in me


- Mandi Lynn © 2012

Winter - Poem

This is the poem I wrote that was read at the funeral of a very dear friend, whom I still can't believe is gone.

Winter's cold hands held on, refusing to let go
We thought we missed the sun but only because we didn't know
That winter kept you safe in it's fluffy white embrace
I wish winter was still here to wipe the tears from my face
This loss is too much to bear when we cannot find the reason
Oh how we've come to love you though we knew you but for a season
You were young and full of life, beloved by everyone
You were a great friend, a great man, a great brother, and an especially great son
We'll miss all of the jokes we shared, we'll miss the dimples from your smile
We'll miss your obsession with Oakley sunglasses and the band shirts that were your style
We'll miss the memories that we've made and we'll always hold them dear
And in that way we'll always have you and always keep you near
Though we may wish to go back to winter to take away this pain
Though we may wish to go back to winter to have you here again
We know you'd want us to look forward, knowing this goodbye is only for awhile
You'll be waiting for us at the pearly gates to greet us with your smile


- Mandi Lynn © 2013

Keep What I Don't Deserve - Song

Dark shadows under my eyes
it's been another sleepless night
wishing you were by my side
wishing that we wouldn't fight
You're everything I need
but still I love you the worst
If I keep holding on, can I keep what I don't deserve?
Sometimes I'm too afraid to speak
the words always come out wrong
I don't know what to do, so I just keep holding on,
but I'm so afraid...

If I make one more mistake
will it all break and fall away
if I keep screwing up
could you still love me the same?
If I'm never more than this
or if I just keep getting worse
can I keep holding on to your love
can I keep what I don't deserve?

Another day of silence
a cold chill in the air
I feel the absence of your touch
and wonder if you care
Why does it hurt so much to love you
to know I can't do anything right
it keeps my mind so busy
and I toss and turn at night
Sometimes I'm too afraid to keep trying
when all my actions are wrong
I don't know what to do, so I just keep holding on
but I'm so afraid...

If I make one more mistake
will it all break and fall away
if I keep screwing up
could you still love me the same?
If I'm never more than this
or if I just keep getting worse
can I keep holding on to your love
can I keep what I don't deserve?

Show me how to love you better,
show me how to make you stay
tell me what to do to keep you
so you keep loving me this way
I'm so afraid...

If I make on more mistake
will it all break and fall away
if I keep screwing up
could you still love me the same?
If I'm never more than this
or if I just keep getting worse
can I keep holding on to your love
can I keep what I don't deserve?


- Mandi Lynn © 2012

Brown Eyes Of The Storm - Song

(This was deleted, I have to repost it. Thank you for those who left comments on the original. I love to get feedback on my work, constructive criticism always helps. You guys are all amazing.)

I fell for the bait
you use your anger to hate
it's such a shame
to be back to this game
There's that look on your face
as you storm away
you're a hurricane
I keep getting in your way

I'm lost, in the brown eyes of the storm
I can't see the calm anymore
Tell me where was the hurt?
Tell me where was the harm?
Tell me why you're so quick to pick up arms?

These tears that I cry
are from the years gone by
and the game of tug of war
to keep you in my life
Is it by choice or by blood
to keep what you know is no good
'Til death do us part
you'll always be
right here in my heart

You don't seem to see
that you're words cut me this deep
the price of blood is too steep
you sow what you'll reap
there is no excuse
when there's so much to lose
it's not up to me
it's in your hands to choose

Will it be too late for us?
Or will you change our fate for us?

These tears that I cry
are from the years gone by
and the game of tug of war
to keep you in my life
Is it by choice or by blood
to keep what you know is no good
'Til death do us part
you'll always be
right here in my heart

I'll do what I can to keep you
right here in my heart
I'll do what it takes to reach you
right here in my heart
Even if it means
I'll forever be
lost in the brown eyes of the storm


- Mandi Lynn © 2013

Lifted Sins - Rap Style Poem

My soul cries out but still I don't hear
as I walk through my life living in fear
knowing I'm not who I should be
hating I always feel guilty
wondering who I could be or who I would be
if I could stand up with my head held high
if I could spread my wings and take a leap and fly
if I only I could bring myself to try
but I just stand in the shadows and cry
with my head held down looking to the ground
hoping to be unseen so I don't make a sound
with my lips held tight and my heart sank low
praying that no one will ever know
I've messed up this life that I've been handed
now I live on the sidelines where I've been stranded
not knowing that I've been branded
emotional scars are here to remind me
that I can run but my sins will still find me
my guilt and my fears will always bind me
so with tear filled eyes I fall to my knees
I cry out, I beg, I plead
then I hear a voice from a place within me
and I know what to do for Him to forgive me
to have my sins washed away like the life I was living
forever to be thankful for the new life I've been given
the weight of my sins has been lifted and though I'm not gifted
I will do the best I can to spread His name
'Cause once you turn to Jesus, your life will never be the same!


- Mandi Lynn © 2006

As I Lay Me Down - Poem

As I lay me down to sleep
in the quiet of the night
I loose these tears I'm meant to keep
into a pillow, soft and white
As I lay me down to bed
in satin sheets of yellow gold
thoughts of you will fill my head
and all the love we couldn't hold
As I lay me down to rest
wishing you were by my side
I think on how we did our best
but in the end were still denied
As I lay me down to dream
just as the darkness settles in
I pray our love will be redeemed
that we can find what might have been


- Mandi Lynn © 2013